This year 2012 is not at all what I anticipated it to be...one of the hardest and most confusing times in my life for sure. But of course God has a plan. "I" had planned to go back to YWAM Kona in April... but every time I started to plan my stomach would churn and no peace would enter my spirit. God then began to make it very evident to me that I was to wait... but I didn't really know what I was waiting for. I felt so squirmy... having no understanding why I was feeling the way I was... So months went by and I still didn't know what I was to do... but the idea of going to Kansas City, Missouri for Circuit Riders ( a school that came out of YWAM KONA) at the International House of Prayer for a weeks, came up. IHOP had been on my heart and in the back of my mind for years, but had never been. After the Lord, confirming it to me many different ways... I got to drive down with a family and help out with Hospitality. It was so refreshing. As soon as I heard worship I almost couldn't contain my self, I was so excited!
This time was so sweet to me because I could just be there with the Lord... I served when needed and the rest of the time I could just focus on Jesus and nothing else. The best part was that God pursued me by sending people to me that I have never had conversations with to give me a word that revealed the things I had been longing for in the deepest parts of my heart. Almost every time I would just weep... a very good weep. So many words confirmed what my next season would be...and I would get that feeling of... its almost too good to be true... I was so undone... with gratitude and hope filling my heart again. Although there were words given... I didn't know what that would look like practically and with some doubt in my heart...wondering if this really will come to pass and not just some good sounding words. Then, later in the week this sweet Chinese lady came and prayed for me... for about 10 minutes. Everything God was giving her to say... pierced my heart. Truth to the core. She then a few days later before anyone else showed up she came to me and told me a testimony of what God had done for her in present. time. ( I will keep the story a secret for her privacy.) Then she proceeded to say that God had her tell me these things because the dreams and words He has given me will come to pass and HE IS REAL! HA! Shawna, No DUH, sometimes I need a reality check! At that moment I knew God was being serious with me and PROMISED me those things. No fluff. I never cease to be amazed at how God works. My mind is in awe every time! Not only did he blow my mind with his words... when worship started... the only lyrics I can remember were "You chase me down" or something like that! Ha after he just did! Thank you God!
So, this new chapter is starting in less than a week from today. I am moving to California with some YWAMERs to be a part of a community house. I am so looking forward to this. We will be very involved in the community. The word that many felt that God was speaking was that the harvest is ripe for America. God longs for his lost children in America to come to him. This has been my heart cry lately, I want to love the Lost like God does. I know I love God with more words than I can say, but I want to be a Soul Winner. I love to talk to people about Jesus but I long for my heart to long for others to know Him. There is no one like him. I will be looking for a part time job but still need financial and prayerful supporters. I am still a missionary but now in my own countries soil. I will be with people that will challenge my hunger for Christ and for the lost to know him. I will grow deeper friendships.
Ill update more as time goes on. Give more detail of what God is doing and more testimonies of what God has done in the last few weeks as well.
Prayer Points
- Finances, I am going on faith right now. I don't have what I need currently.
- More personal freedom
- Long lasting God given friendships
- For the Lost and Broken to encounter Jesus!
If you have questions or want prayer... please don't hesitate to call or email me.
