And HE slipped away pt2

Israel...the Holy one of ISRAEL! Israel...I am going to ISRAEL! I know I haven't spoken much about this trip. It has been tossed around quite often between the gals that I am going with, but did not really have firm details set in place until a week or so ago. We now have a team blog called Awaken Israel. While in Israel, we will all be updating from that blog. So please go and check it out. I mentioned in a previous post the things that God has put on my heart for Israel, but I will share again. When ever I sit and think about our trip to Israel, I feel Gods heart for us is really to GO. I have this sense of urgency...the time is now. Although part of the reason we are going is to scout out the land to take future outreach teams.I believe this trip, although short, is going to be much larger in perspective than we think. When I first left for Australia to do my DTS, I longed for a different perspective on the world, because all I had known was what it looked like from the American side of view. I believe God is going to break our boxes as we go to Israel. Take us deeper. As He takes us deeper, we will be able to champion and impart that to our students coming in July and fellow staffers. We are going to worship and pray over the land. We are going to declare scripture over the  land! We recently have had prayers answered and Sam Choi who staffed the Awaken DTS' with us last year is going to come with US! PRAISE! We are still in need for $2000 person for flights. Pray for us as we go on this 3 week trip, May11th-30th.

Chantal Marquez

From Denver, CO. I have a huge heart for the nation of Israel. I love to see God moving in peoples lives and simply amazed that He allows me to be a part of it. I enjoy a good cup of coffee, good conversation and talking about the Lord and what He is doing in my life, your life and the world. His love is never ending and always enduring. I can hardly wait to see what He has planned for this time in Israel.

Kristi Zboncak

From Wheaton, IL.  Jesus completely altered the course of my life through His unrelenting love. My heart is for broken women and teens and I long to see the Lord bring restoration to their lives and hearts.

  Sam Choi- Staffed last Awaken DTS and is joining us on this journey.

Many times in Scripture,  Jesus slipped away in solitude to pray. I feel that is the season he has called me in. Being intentional about slipping away to be with him and pray. Without getting away with him and being alert to what he is saying... I would not be in the place I am. The things he has been speaking to me have been so full. I am excited to go to the Holy Land. To understand to context behind so many things that Jesus spoke in scripture. 

 CHECK OUT OUR ISRAEL TEAM BLOG  
http://awakenisrael.blogspot.com/

 

Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed. Mark 1:35

And HE slipped away.... pt 1

Prepare yourself... because this may be much longer than usual and God stirring!

My heart is so undone...at any moment that I slip away with Jesus, his spirit is so close. Please listen to what I am saying... what I am saying is real. It is true. I am not hyping up some spiritual experience. This season we live in, not just people in YWAM, but people all around the world... something is shifting. I encourage you to ask him what is on His heart and really really listen. About 2 weeks ago, my spirit was wrestling... that is not a comfortable place to be... my spirit was WRESTLING.... and out of that my spirit groaned and tears fell. Why are we Christians?! What is the point of what we do?!?! Why are we not on the same page!?! GOOOODDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!! Ohhh JESUS! What is on your HEART!?!? What do you see?! I then went to the prayer room and God made my heart so hungry for PURITY and HOLINESS! I feel the ache of His heart. He calls us to be Holy as he is HOLY. He cannot let anything into his PURE kingdom that is unholy... he will spit the lukewarm out of his mouth. He longs to be with us... lets go get him... consecrate ourselves to be Holy as HE is HOLY! Be watchful for what you put into your temple.... what you think is funny, the way you spend your time. We represent a Holy God and he DESERVES it all. The reality is that we are preparing for our coming King. He is going to come back and I desire to be where He is! No complacency! No Settling! Let us be Sharp and Watchful!

I have felt convicted... My heart is zealous after God. I love him... but if I am not walking out what I say... walking out what I believe... what is the point of even being Christian? Its meaningless... faith without deeds is dead! Im sure you have heard this many times before... but I pray that as you read it that divine revelation will fall in your heart. If you are speaking things that you aren't intentionally trying to walk out and seek... its DEAD! (I am speaking to myself here as well) God isn't playing a game. Its dealing with LIFE and DEATH here... whether you believe so or not. God does have grace for us... but we need to kick passivity in the FACE!  I really believe that God is taking our team to a deeper place with Him... in the next 6 months or so... I believe its very crucial time to get with Him. Making sure we are putting on our armor. Making sure that our weapons are loaded and ready. For those of you that read my newsletter, I felt the Lord say that this year, is a year of breakthrough for the Body of Christ, all over the world. One morning I awoke, still in my half asleep stage and the first thing that I heard was the Lord speaking to me. "I am steadfast. I am Strong. I am steadfast, I am strong." He was speaking that over me and confirming to me that is who He is. There is nothing better to wake up to than to hearing Gods voice. Its the best way to start out the day. My heart was in the most amazing place all day!

I want to take a bit of a step back... in the midst of the Lord speaking so much to me. A few friends of mine, one weekend went downtown near the water, to simply hang out. We were sitting on a rock wall overlooking the water and praying for each other. Asking the Lord what was on His heart for each person. We were kinda wrapping it up and just talking, when all of a sudden this couple, that was very apparently drunk, came up to us. The man started making some crude jokes. We weren't sure how to respond. Even though we probably didn't seem like the most welcoming people in that moment... they proceeded to sit down with us. The man began to chat with the boys and the woman began to ask us girls many questions. My mind was racing, trying to figure out how to present my self to this woman. I wanted her to know Jesus. I wanted to up front ask her if she knows about him, but didn't want scare her. I wanted to to let her know I was safe.. so she kept the conversation going. She told us about her boys that she can't see... I could see pain all over in her eyes. She was so sweet and full of LOVE, but the lifestyle she was caught up in is just causing pain. She then continued to tell us that she has had seizures for 10 years and can't keep a job because of them and the pills she takes. I asked her if we could pray for her... at first I thought she said no... but then she quickly responded and so NO.. I don't mind! She was hungry. We began to pray for healing. I believe God is GOING to heal her! And then we went further and began to pray for her heart... and I looked down and saw tears just streaming down her face... I cannot tell you what that did to me. I felt Gods heart for her. I still do every time I talk about it. That woman was so raw with her pain... she didn't act like she had it all together... but yet most of us Christians try to act like we have to keep our pain inside... What happened to being raw with our struggles...? God used her to speak to my heart! My heart was breaking...  God... I am here... I was just sitting here downtown... they came up to us. They saw YOU in US! He opened the door. I was available and he used it! AH God I rarely make myself available to the broken... and it breaks your heart! I hate breaking your heart because I love your heart. The very next day... I sat in the same place for a couple of hours and another woman came up to me. I was again in awe of God. I only need to make myself available... they come. I want to live out what I believe...

I long to be like Jesus... repeatedly in scripture, Jesus slipped away in solitude to pray. He has been alluring me away... taking away earthly desires... It has been so hard to be with people because my heart is so longing to be purified. To be Holy. To prepare me for times like I just wrote about.

Please watch the video below... it may give you a better picture to what God has been speaking to me...and please stay tuned in the next day or so Ill continue part 2 and update about my trip to Israel.

I heard it!

Justice. Righteousness. Israel. Thoughts. Buzzing and Buzzing all over in my being. God has been speaking to me incredibly clear and a lot lately. My spirit has been more aware than I think it has ever been! I have been meaning to write an entry for about a week now, but I needed some time to wrestle and process the things God has been doing inside of me. Tomorrow is April 1st! I think I say this every entry but TIME FLIES! The first quarter of the year is over and new students come in next week! WHOA! I am currently working in student services where I help get students get here! I answer their questions and get their files processed. Peoples lives are changing, sometimes I'm not always aware of that but that is the reality!

Lately, God has been stirring in me about Justice and Righteousness. What is righteousness? How are we considered righteous? In everything God does, he does it with righteousness. I'm not fully there yet but God is moving! Along those lines... God is teaching me how to be vulnerable. How to honestly repent... you know as crazy and simple as it sounds... I had a revelation that I sin. I SIN.... YES  S. I. N. SIN! I make mistakes. I have faults that are unpleasing to the Lord but yet he loves me. He is patient with me. He is showing me things in my life that I can't just have as knowledge but must act upon. Faith without action is dead! Its not about knowledge or doing good works that saves you, but if you believe something and never act on it. What good is if for you to even believe it? Why would it even matter if you don't act upon it. It would become meaningless. Hes teaching me to walk hahaha. WHAT on earth? He is teaching me to faith walk... Its not easy but its freeing.

In the very beginning of this entry I typed Israel, well there is a very significant reason why. In the month of May, me and 2 other girls that I staff with are planning to take a trip to Israel for 3 weeks to a month. God has been pouring out things to what this trip will be about and it kinda blows my mind. But there are a few things that have to happen in order for us to go. Currently we are praying for a guy to go with us. That is a must. Secondly, I praying for the funds to go because as of right now I have zero towards that trip. That as well is a must. At the end of our Awaken DTS of last year, us staff filled out a questionnaire email and there was a question about what countries God had been speaking to us about. I would say that about 90% of us had said ISRAEL. When I heard of the idea of going to Israel with some of my staff I had instant peace about it.  I had previously never really felt a burden or a pull towards it but I believe God is calling us to go in this hour. Many of our other awaken staff are traveling across the USA to gain perspective on what God is doing in his church. It has been amazing. God is setting up almost all of our staff on some sort of trip that will be influential on where we will take future teams as well and gaining impartation. These are a few things God has been speaking to me about this trip.

• Proclaiming Scripture of the land, declaring truth, calling Israel back into its rightful destiny.
• Intercession
• Impartation. God will impart something in us that we will be able to in turn impart to our students and fellow staffers.
• Gain understanding on what God is doing in his people and what he longs to do on the earth.

I am really looking forward to this trip. After we get back we immediately head into staff training as Awaken staff. We will take time to focus and pray into our school. Build our community as staffers and pour into each other and then our school begins July 7th! This summer is going to be FIRE. God is going to bring I believe bigger revelation than we thought.

Prayers

• at least $2500 for Israel. Plane tickets. Housing. Food.
• Details for Israel
• To be more intentional with relationships
• Monthly supporters. Financially and Prayfully. Both are HIGHLY needed
• My biological Family
• Strength to keep focused 
• Clear communication with my Awaken family
• Consistent deep friendships
• Unity amongst my Awaken team, amongst other schools on campus, and in the body worldwide

Personal needs

• Clothing such as shorts and jeans. 
• Backpack
• New computer
• financial supporters
• sunglasses 

I pray that God is stirring your heart and taking you into a deeper place with him. I pray that you hear is voice clearer than you have ever heard it. I pray for provision and direction to where God wants you to be.