Prepare yourself... because this may be much longer than usual and God stirring!
My heart is so undone...at any moment that I slip away with Jesus, his spirit is so close. Please listen to what I am saying... what I am saying is real. It is true. I am not hyping up some spiritual experience. This season we live in, not just people in YWAM, but people all around the world... something is shifting. I encourage you to ask him what is on His heart and really really listen. About 2 weeks ago, my spirit was wrestling... that is not a comfortable place to be... my spirit was WRESTLING.... and out of that my spirit groaned and tears fell. Why are we Christians?! What is the point of what we do?!?! Why are we not on the same page!?! GOOOODDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!! Ohhh JESUS! What is on your HEART!?!? What do you see?! I then went to the prayer room and God made my heart so hungry for PURITY and HOLINESS! I feel the ache of His heart. He calls us to be Holy as he is HOLY. He cannot let anything into his PURE kingdom that is unholy... he will spit the lukewarm out of his mouth. He longs to be with us... lets go get him... consecrate ourselves to be Holy as HE is HOLY! Be watchful for what you put into your temple.... what you think is funny, the way you spend your time. We represent a Holy God and he DESERVES it all. The reality is that we are preparing for our coming King. He is going to come back and I desire to be where He is! No complacency! No Settling! Let us be Sharp and Watchful!
I have felt convicted... My heart is zealous after God. I love him... but if I am not walking out what I say... walking out what I believe... what is the point of even being Christian? Its meaningless... faith without deeds is dead! Im sure you have heard this many times before... but I pray that as you read it that divine revelation will fall in your heart. If you are speaking things that you aren't intentionally trying to walk out and seek... its DEAD! (I am speaking to myself here as well) God isn't playing a game. Its dealing with LIFE and DEATH here... whether you believe so or not. God does have grace for us... but we need to kick passivity in the FACE! I really believe that God is taking our team to a deeper place with Him... in the next 6 months or so... I believe its very crucial time to get with Him. Making sure we are putting on our armor. Making sure that our weapons are loaded and ready. For those of you that read my newsletter, I felt the Lord say that this year, is a year of breakthrough for the Body of Christ, all over the world. One morning I awoke, still in my half asleep stage and the first thing that I heard was the Lord speaking to me. "I am steadfast. I am Strong. I am steadfast, I am strong." He was speaking that over me and confirming to me that is who He is. There is nothing better to wake up to than to hearing Gods voice. Its the best way to start out the day. My heart was in the most amazing place all day!
I want to take a bit of a step back... in the midst of the Lord speaking so much to me. A few friends of mine, one weekend went downtown near the water, to simply hang out. We were sitting on a rock wall overlooking the water and praying for each other. Asking the Lord what was on His heart for each person. We were kinda wrapping it up and just talking, when all of a sudden this couple, that was very apparently drunk, came up to us. The man started making some crude jokes. We weren't sure how to respond. Even though we probably didn't seem like the most welcoming people in that moment... they proceeded to sit down with us. The man began to chat with the boys and the woman began to ask us girls many questions. My mind was racing, trying to figure out how to present my self to this woman. I wanted her to know Jesus. I wanted to up front ask her if she knows about him, but didn't want scare her. I wanted to to let her know I was safe.. so she kept the conversation going. She told us about her boys that she can't see... I could see pain all over in her eyes. She was so sweet and full of LOVE, but the lifestyle she was caught up in is just causing pain. She then continued to tell us that she has had seizures for 10 years and can't keep a job because of them and the pills she takes. I asked her if we could pray for her... at first I thought she said no... but then she quickly responded and so NO.. I don't mind! She was hungry. We began to pray for healing. I believe God is GOING to heal her! And then we went further and began to pray for her heart... and I looked down and saw tears just streaming down her face... I cannot tell you what that did to me. I felt Gods heart for her. I still do every time I talk about it. That woman was so raw with her pain... she didn't act like she had it all together... but yet most of us Christians try to act like we have to keep our pain inside... What happened to being raw with our struggles...? God used her to speak to my heart! My heart was breaking... God... I am here... I was just sitting here downtown... they came up to us. They saw YOU in US! He opened the door. I was available and he used it! AH God I rarely make myself available to the broken... and it breaks your heart! I hate breaking your heart because I love your heart. The very next day... I sat in the same place for a couple of hours and another woman came up to me. I was again in awe of God. I only need to make myself available... they come. I want to live out what I believe...
I long to be like Jesus... repeatedly in scripture, Jesus slipped away in solitude to pray. He has been alluring me away... taking away earthly desires... It has been so hard to be with people because my heart is so longing to be purified. To be Holy. To prepare me for times like I just wrote about.
Please watch the video below... it may give you a better picture to what God has been speaking to me...and please stay tuned in the next day or so Ill continue part 2 and update about my trip to Israel.
My heart is so undone...at any moment that I slip away with Jesus, his spirit is so close. Please listen to what I am saying... what I am saying is real. It is true. I am not hyping up some spiritual experience. This season we live in, not just people in YWAM, but people all around the world... something is shifting. I encourage you to ask him what is on His heart and really really listen. About 2 weeks ago, my spirit was wrestling... that is not a comfortable place to be... my spirit was WRESTLING.... and out of that my spirit groaned and tears fell. Why are we Christians?! What is the point of what we do?!?! Why are we not on the same page!?! GOOOODDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!! Ohhh JESUS! What is on your HEART!?!? What do you see?! I then went to the prayer room and God made my heart so hungry for PURITY and HOLINESS! I feel the ache of His heart. He calls us to be Holy as he is HOLY. He cannot let anything into his PURE kingdom that is unholy... he will spit the lukewarm out of his mouth. He longs to be with us... lets go get him... consecrate ourselves to be Holy as HE is HOLY! Be watchful for what you put into your temple.... what you think is funny, the way you spend your time. We represent a Holy God and he DESERVES it all. The reality is that we are preparing for our coming King. He is going to come back and I desire to be where He is! No complacency! No Settling! Let us be Sharp and Watchful!
I have felt convicted... My heart is zealous after God. I love him... but if I am not walking out what I say... walking out what I believe... what is the point of even being Christian? Its meaningless... faith without deeds is dead! Im sure you have heard this many times before... but I pray that as you read it that divine revelation will fall in your heart. If you are speaking things that you aren't intentionally trying to walk out and seek... its DEAD! (I am speaking to myself here as well) God isn't playing a game. Its dealing with LIFE and DEATH here... whether you believe so or not. God does have grace for us... but we need to kick passivity in the FACE! I really believe that God is taking our team to a deeper place with Him... in the next 6 months or so... I believe its very crucial time to get with Him. Making sure we are putting on our armor. Making sure that our weapons are loaded and ready. For those of you that read my newsletter, I felt the Lord say that this year, is a year of breakthrough for the Body of Christ, all over the world. One morning I awoke, still in my half asleep stage and the first thing that I heard was the Lord speaking to me. "I am steadfast. I am Strong. I am steadfast, I am strong." He was speaking that over me and confirming to me that is who He is. There is nothing better to wake up to than to hearing Gods voice. Its the best way to start out the day. My heart was in the most amazing place all day!
I want to take a bit of a step back... in the midst of the Lord speaking so much to me. A few friends of mine, one weekend went downtown near the water, to simply hang out. We were sitting on a rock wall overlooking the water and praying for each other. Asking the Lord what was on His heart for each person. We were kinda wrapping it up and just talking, when all of a sudden this couple, that was very apparently drunk, came up to us. The man started making some crude jokes. We weren't sure how to respond. Even though we probably didn't seem like the most welcoming people in that moment... they proceeded to sit down with us. The man began to chat with the boys and the woman began to ask us girls many questions. My mind was racing, trying to figure out how to present my self to this woman. I wanted her to know Jesus. I wanted to up front ask her if she knows about him, but didn't want scare her. I wanted to to let her know I was safe.. so she kept the conversation going. She told us about her boys that she can't see... I could see pain all over in her eyes. She was so sweet and full of LOVE, but the lifestyle she was caught up in is just causing pain. She then continued to tell us that she has had seizures for 10 years and can't keep a job because of them and the pills she takes. I asked her if we could pray for her... at first I thought she said no... but then she quickly responded and so NO.. I don't mind! She was hungry. We began to pray for healing. I believe God is GOING to heal her! And then we went further and began to pray for her heart... and I looked down and saw tears just streaming down her face... I cannot tell you what that did to me. I felt Gods heart for her. I still do every time I talk about it. That woman was so raw with her pain... she didn't act like she had it all together... but yet most of us Christians try to act like we have to keep our pain inside... What happened to being raw with our struggles...? God used her to speak to my heart! My heart was breaking... God... I am here... I was just sitting here downtown... they came up to us. They saw YOU in US! He opened the door. I was available and he used it! AH God I rarely make myself available to the broken... and it breaks your heart! I hate breaking your heart because I love your heart. The very next day... I sat in the same place for a couple of hours and another woman came up to me. I was again in awe of God. I only need to make myself available... they come. I want to live out what I believe...
I long to be like Jesus... repeatedly in scripture, Jesus slipped away in solitude to pray. He has been alluring me away... taking away earthly desires... It has been so hard to be with people because my heart is so longing to be purified. To be Holy. To prepare me for times like I just wrote about.
Please watch the video below... it may give you a better picture to what God has been speaking to me...and please stay tuned in the next day or so Ill continue part 2 and update about my trip to Israel.
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