Do you ever have those days... where you just feel DIRTY??!!? UGH and you just want to get home so you can take a shower! Especially after a day where you worked in the garden and your COVERED in MUD! It might feel kinda fun at first... the mud is all wet and then slowly dries and begins to crack... a few more hours go by and that fun feeling is long gone! You think to yourself... "I am just so ready to get this junk off of me!!" You wipe off as much as you can but it just doesn't do the job. You are desperate for that SHOWER!
Well, this is how I have felt for a while now. My failures and my faults in my face seem to be mud stuck on my face. I am so imperfect! There is no good in me. And mind you I am not just saying that because I am supposed to say it. Its the Christian thing to say. NO, I really mean it!! I have been overwhelmed with how I fall daily...multiple times a DAY! God has been revealing so much to me, not to torture me but so that I might grow. I think for a while I have been ignorant of some of my flaws...so therefore they just remain. Its humbling. I don't even have a chance to boast at how "AMAZING" I am because I see how I fall. I am coming to the end of myself all over again. I am in desperate need of change... I am in desperate need of JESUS. You know... I have known this....its not like this light bulb went on and I suddenly realized. No, I ve known that basic, but the reality always stays the same no matter how much time passes. I will ALWAYS still NEED Jesus. My thinking might get turned a bit...where I think hmm... He said hes making me into the likeness of him and maybe I wont need him as much as I did before... Hah EEEEHH wrong answer. For that very reason I will need Jesus all the MORE! I am desperate for that SHOWER. I want to be clean... I want him to change me from the inside out!! JESUS COME!!! Ive finally come to that realization.. that no one... NOT ONE person can change me. NOT one HUMAN can save me. ONLY JESUS. I can cry on someones shoulder time after time... I can wipe off the mud as much as I can, but nothing.... no... NOTHING but the Blood OF JESUS can wash away my filth. That one shower will not last me a life time. I have to take showers everyday... I need to stay in the river.
Hes changing my character with each passing day and I am grateful. The only good in me is because of Jesus. He is the only reason why I do what I do. I would not be where I am today if it wasn't for him I am so beyond grateful.
You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires, to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self; created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. Ephesians 4:22-23
Well, this is how I have felt for a while now. My failures and my faults in my face seem to be mud stuck on my face. I am so imperfect! There is no good in me. And mind you I am not just saying that because I am supposed to say it. Its the Christian thing to say. NO, I really mean it!! I have been overwhelmed with how I fall daily...multiple times a DAY! God has been revealing so much to me, not to torture me but so that I might grow. I think for a while I have been ignorant of some of my flaws...so therefore they just remain. Its humbling. I don't even have a chance to boast at how "AMAZING" I am because I see how I fall. I am coming to the end of myself all over again. I am in desperate need of change... I am in desperate need of JESUS. You know... I have known this....its not like this light bulb went on and I suddenly realized. No, I ve known that basic, but the reality always stays the same no matter how much time passes. I will ALWAYS still NEED Jesus. My thinking might get turned a bit...where I think hmm... He said hes making me into the likeness of him and maybe I wont need him as much as I did before... Hah EEEEHH wrong answer. For that very reason I will need Jesus all the MORE! I am desperate for that SHOWER. I want to be clean... I want him to change me from the inside out!! JESUS COME!!! Ive finally come to that realization.. that no one... NOT ONE person can change me. NOT one HUMAN can save me. ONLY JESUS. I can cry on someones shoulder time after time... I can wipe off the mud as much as I can, but nothing.... no... NOTHING but the Blood OF JESUS can wash away my filth. That one shower will not last me a life time. I have to take showers everyday... I need to stay in the river.
Hes changing my character with each passing day and I am grateful. The only good in me is because of Jesus. He is the only reason why I do what I do. I would not be where I am today if it wasn't for him I am so beyond grateful.
You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires, to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self; created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. Ephesians 4:22-23
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