What a week... I have been in Kona for almost a month now and its already been a wild ride. The first week I was here I was beyond excited to be back. I felt no trouble in my heart, what a sweet place to be. After all of the excitement began to wear off... God began to ask me some wrestling questions. I would look around and not know as many people because of all the new students here for the current DTS', my heart would sometimes feel lonely. Of course, this would trouble me. I then would go and pout to Jesus... hes so patient with me, and in that time he would ask me... "Shawna, would you still serve me if everyone on this campus rejected you?" Would you still give me all that you are, even when all of those people don't agree or love you? I didn't really answer, but repeatedly day after day, Jesus would ask me this question. I felt so convicted. My hunger for Jesus just grew. I realized that my mind has stayed stuck in that mindset of wanting to please man and be satisfied with what they can give me more than Jesus. My heart broke. My soul YEARNED. My flesh cried out. My spirit longs for more but my flesh argues. It makes me so sad when I see my self treat Jesus this way. I'd like to think I have it all together, but that is far from the truth. I truly want Jesus more than anything and I need Gods help to make my flesh die!
Allen Hood, a leader from the International House of Prayer in Kansas City, was here to speak to a school for about a week. He had a few special times of speaking in our prayer room that was open for all to come. The first night he spoke about the baptism of Fire and the very last night God revealed himself through the Holy Spirit in an AWESOME way. Before He even got up to speak, the spirit was heavy in the room. The reverence of God was showing up! We began to wail and cry out, we were birthing something in the spirit. My heart was aching because I felt like this deep deep groan needed to come out of me. I long for us all to be so undignified before the Lord, but I know my self I hold back at times out of fear... How lame is that! God was reminding me in that moment of the urgency and need for us to give everything fully over to Jesus. He kept saying to me, "I want to do a new thing!" Shortly after Allen began to share a few things that God has been putting on his heart. My spirit was so stirred and encouraged because God had been speaking the same thing to me. For those of you that received my newsletter I shared a little bit about this on there. The word God spoke to me about this was " a year of breakthrough." I felt as we step out and go after the things of God, he is going reveal himself in ways to the body that will leave us awestruck. The word that Allen had shared was that he felt like especially for YWAM that it is a new season. The last night a shift had happened. We need the holy spirit! No matter how much knowledge we have attained about him or history or earthly wisdom. WE need His HOLY SPIRIT TO SHOW UP! With out it we are dead!!!!! I am so thankful for it too. He encountered me that night. He has in many different ways before but this night was very very needed. I was so dry and thirsty. I have never shook like that before... the amount of peace that came on me was soo good all I could do was drink it in. A few moments later by body felt like I was on FIRE.... My hands began to burn. He started to burn away my anxiety. He was taking something off me that I cant really explain and putting on a new pair of clothing. I believe that night was a marking point of Jesus doing something NEW...not just in me but in the body. Many left that night making a deep real commitment to give it all away to Jesus. Making a covenant to never part from his side no matter the cost. That is what he desires. Loyal friends. Loyal lovers.
A couple days after Allen had left, as many of you know a Tsunami Hit Japan, Here in Kona Hawaii, and many other places. Around 10pm our Tsunami sirens began to sound. People began to come out of their rooms to see what was really happening. At almost every hour the alarm would sound. People that were below Kuakini Highway(which is the street at the bottom of our campus, we were ok) were evacuated. Many people had stayed up until 4 am to await this mysterious disaster. I on the other hand I didn't feel the need. So I went to sleep, well at least I tried. That morning I woke up not really knowing if anything happened because everything was quiet and no one came to alarm me of any damage. I soon found out that downtown was affected and before it was cleaned up, looked like a third world country. God began speaking to me. He was giving me deeper revelation about being awakened. He said I call out to those sleeping, awake awake o sleeper. I sound alarms. I am coming! Prepare yourself, I am coming my bride! But there are those who don't bother to listen. They say "don't bother me, nothing is happening. I am sleeping." But he came like a thief of the night and you knew nothing of it. You didn't listen because you couldn't see me. You did not heed the warnings.You did not listen, now the damage is done. I saw how I slept and the disaster downtown came and left and I knew nothing of it til I awoke, is what is happening in the spirit realm. So many are sleeping and ignoring the warnings that Jesus is giving us. Hebrews 3:7-8 So, as the Holy Spirit says: "Today, if you hear his voice do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion, during the time of testing in the wilderness."
Revelation 3: 12-14 The one who is victorious I will make a pillar in the temple of my God. Never again will they leave it. I will write on them the name of my God and the name of the city of my God, the new Jerusalem, which is coming down out of heaven from my God; and I will also write on them my new name. Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches.
I want to be aware. More aware of what He is saying all the time. He is preparing a bride for when he is to return and I want to be able give Jesus everything no matter what the cost.
Shh... Listen... can you hear what the Spirit is saying...? Shh... Listen....
Allen Hood, a leader from the International House of Prayer in Kansas City, was here to speak to a school for about a week. He had a few special times of speaking in our prayer room that was open for all to come. The first night he spoke about the baptism of Fire and the very last night God revealed himself through the Holy Spirit in an AWESOME way. Before He even got up to speak, the spirit was heavy in the room. The reverence of God was showing up! We began to wail and cry out, we were birthing something in the spirit. My heart was aching because I felt like this deep deep groan needed to come out of me. I long for us all to be so undignified before the Lord, but I know my self I hold back at times out of fear... How lame is that! God was reminding me in that moment of the urgency and need for us to give everything fully over to Jesus. He kept saying to me, "I want to do a new thing!" Shortly after Allen began to share a few things that God has been putting on his heart. My spirit was so stirred and encouraged because God had been speaking the same thing to me. For those of you that received my newsletter I shared a little bit about this on there. The word God spoke to me about this was " a year of breakthrough." I felt as we step out and go after the things of God, he is going reveal himself in ways to the body that will leave us awestruck. The word that Allen had shared was that he felt like especially for YWAM that it is a new season. The last night a shift had happened. We need the holy spirit! No matter how much knowledge we have attained about him or history or earthly wisdom. WE need His HOLY SPIRIT TO SHOW UP! With out it we are dead!!!!! I am so thankful for it too. He encountered me that night. He has in many different ways before but this night was very very needed. I was so dry and thirsty. I have never shook like that before... the amount of peace that came on me was soo good all I could do was drink it in. A few moments later by body felt like I was on FIRE.... My hands began to burn. He started to burn away my anxiety. He was taking something off me that I cant really explain and putting on a new pair of clothing. I believe that night was a marking point of Jesus doing something NEW...not just in me but in the body. Many left that night making a deep real commitment to give it all away to Jesus. Making a covenant to never part from his side no matter the cost. That is what he desires. Loyal friends. Loyal lovers.
A couple days after Allen had left, as many of you know a Tsunami Hit Japan, Here in Kona Hawaii, and many other places. Around 10pm our Tsunami sirens began to sound. People began to come out of their rooms to see what was really happening. At almost every hour the alarm would sound. People that were below Kuakini Highway(which is the street at the bottom of our campus, we were ok) were evacuated. Many people had stayed up until 4 am to await this mysterious disaster. I on the other hand I didn't feel the need. So I went to sleep, well at least I tried. That morning I woke up not really knowing if anything happened because everything was quiet and no one came to alarm me of any damage. I soon found out that downtown was affected and before it was cleaned up, looked like a third world country. God began speaking to me. He was giving me deeper revelation about being awakened. He said I call out to those sleeping, awake awake o sleeper. I sound alarms. I am coming! Prepare yourself, I am coming my bride! But there are those who don't bother to listen. They say "don't bother me, nothing is happening. I am sleeping." But he came like a thief of the night and you knew nothing of it. You didn't listen because you couldn't see me. You did not heed the warnings.You did not listen, now the damage is done. I saw how I slept and the disaster downtown came and left and I knew nothing of it til I awoke, is what is happening in the spirit realm. So many are sleeping and ignoring the warnings that Jesus is giving us. Hebrews 3:7-8 So, as the Holy Spirit says: "Today, if you hear his voice do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion, during the time of testing in the wilderness."
Revelation 3: 12-14 The one who is victorious I will make a pillar in the temple of my God. Never again will they leave it. I will write on them the name of my God and the name of the city of my God, the new Jerusalem, which is coming down out of heaven from my God; and I will also write on them my new name. Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches.
I want to be aware. More aware of what He is saying all the time. He is preparing a bride for when he is to return and I want to be able give Jesus everything no matter what the cost.
Shh... Listen... can you hear what the Spirit is saying...? Shh... Listen....
We definitely need a wake-up call. I'm praying for Kona and Japan! Thanks for sharing your story again!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Joy. I dont always notice the comments you post down here.
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