Today we had 3 teams leave... its hard to say goodbye but this is the beginning of something God is longing to do...send us out to burn for HIM. Whether we feel ready or not God is going to rock our worlds. He is longing to set our hearts ablaze and delight in us as we choose to GIVE IT ALL away! Thats my deepest heart cry... it almost hurts.... I long... I YEARN to OPEN my MOUTH, to give all that I am away for Jesus because of the Love that he has poured out into our hearts. Oh to Love JESUS with all our hearts, minds, souls, and strength. God has spoken so many crazy things he wants to do through us, but our main goal is to run into his heart. Fall in love Jesus and move out of that place; reaching the people were encounter. I long for us to so abide in Gods heart that as soon as people look into our eyes they see and fall in love with Jesus. Here is a video with my team and Chase my co-leader explaining a little bit of what we are looking forward to. Please be praying for team unity, a passion for Jesus where we CANNOT keep silent, divine encounters, and that we will be sensitive to the Holy spirits leading, go where he says go and speak when he says to. Love you all. Excited to share with you what God does when we come back December 11th.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Unto you Be all the GLORY
Hiedi Baker was here about a week or so ago over a weekend to and come speak to us. She shared so many stories. I loved it. Shes known for being consumed by the Holy Spirit and seeing miracles and healing happen as a normal part of life in Mozambique, Africa, where she is a full time missionary. I honestly want to be like her. She gives an example of what it can look like to truly abide and commune with God in every moment. Although I didn't have a crazy encounter with the Holy Spirit, He is teaching me a whole lot through that. I guess you could say that is an encounter but its just not what I thought it would look like. He wants me to seek his face. He wants me to seek him not what he has to offer even though that just comes with who he is, but He wants to be known. The first commandment is Love the Lord your God with all your heart! I think I lost sight of that for a moment. This entry will be short and sweet and Ill update right before you leave on outreach, which is next week by the way. Ill upload a video just to give you a glimpse of what a night looked like. God is so much bigger and I hope that everything that I have ever said over these blogs and through emails have spurred you on to run after Jesus with all that you are. I hope that you see Jesus through it all. Keep looking into His Eyes that Burn.
Thursday, September 02, 2010
Full of worship
"God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth." John 4:24 Recently I have been praying for new perspective and revelations. I love that God is faithful and he answers prayers! :) I don't fully have this figured out but something that has been stirring in me is the idea of worship.How do we worship God? The automatic thought is we all get together and have "a time of worship." We organize a few songs, maybe mix it up a bit. Put together a format to worship the lord...not necessarily bad, but God has called us to worship in spirit and in truth. What does that really look like? When I am singing a song I want to make sure that I am truly focusing on him and WORSHIPING him and not thinking about I how feel when I am singing or what I look like but giving him glory. What did it look like for Abraham and the men of old to worship God? Did they put together a program? Did they just sit and sing a song they made up to Him? These are just some of the things stirring inside of me. I do not want any religion in my being... and its a process to fully get that out and just have a true genuine relationship with God.
We leave for India September 24th! That's in about 3 weeks! Its coming so fast! I am learning a lot while putting together this outreach with my co-leader. We will be flying into Mumbai and staying there for the first week possibly working on Bollywood sets and then we will then be taking about a 10 hour train ride to a village where we will be able to do some church planting and sharing about Jesus. We then are planning to go back to Mumbai and do some ministry in orphanages, slums, and possibly the red light district ( with prostitutes). My heart cry is to see God have his way. I do not want any dullness in our hearts but to be fully alive with the BOLDNESS of Christ. We believe God has placed on our hearts that he is going to physically heal people! This excites me very much. Many people in India what have diseases are unable to go to a doctor because or money or transportation. When they have diseases for instance like leprosy they are then considered untouchables and are basically no good in the eyes of the people their. Imagine you coming down with a disease maybe even as simple as having acne... this may not be the case but I'm just painting a picture. Your seen as dirty and cast into a village where people never touch you or love on you because you are now vile. I keep seeing this picture in my mind... I am praying for a woman that has leprosy and has lost her fingers... as I pray her fingers immediately grow back!!!! God has healed her leprosy and and restored her body! It changes her life completely. Now she can live Life More ABUNDANTLY! What freedom that would bring! What life restored back to her! And in that she will finally know God has he is to be know and follow him! It just breaks my heart. It breaks God's heart that people so dear to his heart have to suffer and are treated less than when they have just as much value! So we are expectant that God will work through us.
This past week was about world view. How we as Christians should view the world. Our perspective. We desire to have Heaven Perspective. Keeping our eyes on the King and knowing what is on his heart and what is on his mind. What is he saying? I see our students growing and learning and drawing closer to the Lord everyday. I desire to see and believe that God is raising up a generation of people that are going to be so madly in love him that are not afraid of anything and are going to desire nothing... NOTHING of this world and be completely abandoned to him. I desire to be a part of that people! I will soon be putting up a few testimonies on what has been happening in their lives since they have begun DTS.
If you feel compelled to partner with me and what God is stirring you can be praying and interceding for our unity, for boldness, God would always be the center and reason why we are doing what we are doing, and favor. You can as well donate using the paypal donate button on page or by sending checks to the address in my contact page. If you have any questions please feel free to ask and if you are in need of prayer don't hesitate to ask.
We leave for India September 24th! That's in about 3 weeks! Its coming so fast! I am learning a lot while putting together this outreach with my co-leader. We will be flying into Mumbai and staying there for the first week possibly working on Bollywood sets and then we will then be taking about a 10 hour train ride to a village where we will be able to do some church planting and sharing about Jesus. We then are planning to go back to Mumbai and do some ministry in orphanages, slums, and possibly the red light district ( with prostitutes). My heart cry is to see God have his way. I do not want any dullness in our hearts but to be fully alive with the BOLDNESS of Christ. We believe God has placed on our hearts that he is going to physically heal people! This excites me very much. Many people in India what have diseases are unable to go to a doctor because or money or transportation. When they have diseases for instance like leprosy they are then considered untouchables and are basically no good in the eyes of the people their. Imagine you coming down with a disease maybe even as simple as having acne... this may not be the case but I'm just painting a picture. Your seen as dirty and cast into a village where people never touch you or love on you because you are now vile. I keep seeing this picture in my mind... I am praying for a woman that has leprosy and has lost her fingers... as I pray her fingers immediately grow back!!!! God has healed her leprosy and and restored her body! It changes her life completely. Now she can live Life More ABUNDANTLY! What freedom that would bring! What life restored back to her! And in that she will finally know God has he is to be know and follow him! It just breaks my heart. It breaks God's heart that people so dear to his heart have to suffer and are treated less than when they have just as much value! So we are expectant that God will work through us.
This past week was about world view. How we as Christians should view the world. Our perspective. We desire to have Heaven Perspective. Keeping our eyes on the King and knowing what is on his heart and what is on his mind. What is he saying? I see our students growing and learning and drawing closer to the Lord everyday. I desire to see and believe that God is raising up a generation of people that are going to be so madly in love him that are not afraid of anything and are going to desire nothing... NOTHING of this world and be completely abandoned to him. I desire to be a part of that people! I will soon be putting up a few testimonies on what has been happening in their lives since they have begun DTS.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Fruits of the Spirit
Its been about 2 weeks since I have wrote a blog. Life has been busy here on campus. In about a month or so we will all be heading out to our outreach destinations. The details are slowly but surely coming into place. Currently we are trying to tackle the visas. Not an easy task by any means, thankfully I have an amazing co-leader to be working with and getting most of those done! This past week was about missions and laying down our rights. It was such a good reminder. I am not my own, when I accepted Jesus into my life he became Lord of my life. Life is not about me but about Him; I do what he does, I say what he says. He is so worth it. Sometimes living in this western world I get so caught up in me, me, me. That's what I so admire about non western countries, they are so community oriented and are so servant hearted. This past week we also had a money deadline for the students. About 5 or 6 students needed their $2000 for the down payment for outreach. Within an hour and people obeying the Lord. God provided for every single student!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Basically turned into a dance party and rejoicing to JESUS!
Tomorrow is the beginning of week 7 (sheesh already!!) our speaker is Joseph Avakian and the topic is Worldview. God is going deep into everyone, he is stirring up everything that needs to be shaken so that he is the only solid rock in our lives. I truly believe that when we go out into the nations God is going to move in ways that we never thought possible. Its hard to even put that into words because its a way I CANT think POSSIBLE... God is preparing a people that will be living a life completely abandoned towards him that nothing else matters but to eagerly wait and prepare for his return. God has spoken about our team bringing Gods Healing to many people throughout India. We will see hurting people restored and filled with LIFE! People will find true love for the FIRST TIME! Its not by our own strength but only because we have fallen in love with God who created the universe and he wants to work through us that others may do the same! Please be keeping us in your prayers, we cannot do this alone. We are the body of Christ and we need those prayers to build us up in unity and strength that we may have the boldness to do what we are set out to do.
On a slightly different note...God has been stirring this revelation inside of me about the Fruits of the Spirit. Throughout scripture God speaks about us bearing much fruit or good fruit or bad fruit. He is the vine and we are the branches. Please as I am writing this I feel compelled to give you the freedom to give feedback about this or your revelations on it. It may seem so simple... but God moves in simplicity with power. As we surrender to the Lord, we start become like him. We become what we look at. The fruit we begin to bear is patience... we as Christians should be becoming more and more patient when we walk with HIS spirit. We bear love...it becomes easy to love people... give up our lives for people because we have been walking in his spirit. We should becoming more and more joyful because walking his spirit bears JOY! Peace...our spirits are at peace... not anxious or worried because walking in his spirit forms a solid trust in him so we are at peace... a peace that surpasses ALL understanding... whoa! We start becoming faithful... in all we do. People of integrity. Loyal. Trustworthy! How often do we not trust people? We should be the most trusted people... Walking in by his spirit. Gentleness, we are becoming people of compassion; being gentle with others,caring for them, and being understanding. And then there is Self control... I think that may be the hardest one... maaaaybbbeee... self control... in what I eat...what I think... being able to say no to certain activities... or movies... self control possibly meaning disciplined...in everything I do. Knowing whats right and having the self control to choose to do that. Along with that one I think goes with having a steadfast mind. We have a healthy way of thinking and are strong enough there to control giving into emotions or peer pressure. Being firm, solid and steadfast. Its so interesting how in Galations 5:19 and on, it paints a picture of what we are without Chirst... our sinful nature-sexual immorality, impurity, and debauchery; idolarty, and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, envy, drunkenness and so on. But when we follow after Jesus we get his fruit. The GOOD fruit! Ah! :) Thank you for taking the time to read this; a lot of it is in my mind still processing. Jesus is just so GOOD!
Tomorrow is the beginning of week 7 (sheesh already!!) our speaker is Joseph Avakian and the topic is Worldview. God is going deep into everyone, he is stirring up everything that needs to be shaken so that he is the only solid rock in our lives. I truly believe that when we go out into the nations God is going to move in ways that we never thought possible. Its hard to even put that into words because its a way I CANT think POSSIBLE... God is preparing a people that will be living a life completely abandoned towards him that nothing else matters but to eagerly wait and prepare for his return. God has spoken about our team bringing Gods Healing to many people throughout India. We will see hurting people restored and filled with LIFE! People will find true love for the FIRST TIME! Its not by our own strength but only because we have fallen in love with God who created the universe and he wants to work through us that others may do the same! Please be keeping us in your prayers, we cannot do this alone. We are the body of Christ and we need those prayers to build us up in unity and strength that we may have the boldness to do what we are set out to do.
On a slightly different note...God has been stirring this revelation inside of me about the Fruits of the Spirit. Throughout scripture God speaks about us bearing much fruit or good fruit or bad fruit. He is the vine and we are the branches. Please as I am writing this I feel compelled to give you the freedom to give feedback about this or your revelations on it. It may seem so simple... but God moves in simplicity with power. As we surrender to the Lord, we start become like him. We become what we look at. The fruit we begin to bear is patience... we as Christians should be becoming more and more patient when we walk with HIS spirit. We bear love...it becomes easy to love people... give up our lives for people because we have been walking in his spirit. We should becoming more and more joyful because walking his spirit bears JOY! Peace...our spirits are at peace... not anxious or worried because walking in his spirit forms a solid trust in him so we are at peace... a peace that surpasses ALL understanding... whoa! We start becoming faithful... in all we do. People of integrity. Loyal. Trustworthy! How often do we not trust people? We should be the most trusted people... Walking in by his spirit. Gentleness, we are becoming people of compassion; being gentle with others,caring for them, and being understanding. And then there is Self control... I think that may be the hardest one... maaaaybbbeee... self control... in what I eat...what I think... being able to say no to certain activities... or movies... self control possibly meaning disciplined...in everything I do. Knowing whats right and having the self control to choose to do that. Along with that one I think goes with having a steadfast mind. We have a healthy way of thinking and are strong enough there to control giving into emotions or peer pressure. Being firm, solid and steadfast. Its so interesting how in Galations 5:19 and on, it paints a picture of what we are without Chirst... our sinful nature-sexual immorality, impurity, and debauchery; idolarty, and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, envy, drunkenness and so on. But when we follow after Jesus we get his fruit. The GOOD fruit! Ah! :) Thank you for taking the time to read this; a lot of it is in my mind still processing. Jesus is just so GOOD!
Sunday, August 08, 2010
One Thing
We have already finished week 4!! Time is just slipping by and our schedules just keep getting fuller and fuller! I enjoy the business but I just want to be real with you for a moment... God has been doing so much in our lives and I've come to find myself in need of him more and more everyday. Sometimes I like to think I have it all together, but in reality I don't. I'm just as broken and imperfect as the next person. God has called me to great things and has given me so much to give away but when I start to think I can do it all on my own, I fail miserably. We are all on this journey to know God and cry out and wait for his return. I'm tired of just going through motions and every day life and not seeing REAL God in our daily lives. I just want JESUS. I want him to consume all of me! I want to gaze upon his beauty all the days of my life because nothing in this world can compare to it. I want to count all else as rubbish compared to KNOWING HIM! So I am here...working with YWAM. Its not always the easiest actually as the days go by it gets harder. God is worth it. God is using us as staff to champion the students that chose to come here to fall deeply in love with Jesus and into their God given destinies. When I see a student get blown away by Gods goodness...my heart jumps with a joy knowing that God is moving and will soon get the glory and honor he deserves.
In about 2 months I will again be leaving for India. Me and another leader will be taking a team of 7 students. We are looking forward to what God has in store! We believe God will bring healing, salvation, and restoration to many people while we are there. Please keep us in your prayers as we prepare and we would have deep unity. We have much to get done before heading out. I am also in urgent need of support. We have a deadline coming up this Thursday. I need the first $800 of outreach fees.
In about 2 months I will again be leaving for India. Me and another leader will be taking a team of 7 students. We are looking forward to what God has in store! We believe God will bring healing, salvation, and restoration to many people while we are there. Please keep us in your prayers as we prepare and we would have deep unity. We have much to get done before heading out. I am also in urgent need of support. We have a deadline coming up this Thursday. I need the first $800 of outreach fees.
Monday, August 02, 2010
Rushing Water
Last week we had Aaron Walsh speak. He runs an International House of Prayer in New Zealand. He brought so much revelations and power into lectures; we left all fired up. All the students were just rocked; thoroughly enjoying the week.
God has been putting these burdens on my heart. I would pray for them feeling the anguish of His heart and then Aaron would speak them out. GOD MOVES when we PRAY!!! Gods presence has been so thick on this campus. I just walk around and feel the goodness of the Lord. I'm not sure I can describe it better than that. He has been going deep into peoples hearts, bringing healing to areas that have plagued them their whole life; including myself. I feel like I am on the surgery table and the doctor just made a large incision...it hurts and all I can do is just lay there letting him take out all of the hurt. God is so good, so gracious, so compassionate. There is so much to say but yet I'm not even sure how to formulate how to say it. I am falling more in love and more in awe of God everyday. In Psalms 27:4 it says One thing I ask from the Lord this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. We have been seeking to see his beauty, to know him more. So that we may abide in him!!! God delights in when we choose to delight in him. My heart has known this for a while but when I truly ask to see his beauty there's something about it that seems too simple and my mind wants to make it more complicated. Last night a few of the girls that I am staffing with felt like there were angels in the room. So we just asked the Lord to reveal his beauty and whatever he wanted to show us. I was a little nervous to be honest because it was SO REAL! I felt the fear of the Lord rising up inside of me. He is so real, so Holy, and so BEAUTIFUL. We just felt his presence there. We would put our hands up and our fingertips would tingle, it almost felt like someone else finger tips were touching mine. Our hands almost seemed to disappear in this cloud type thing above us. My legs would get warm and tingle and then cool. We were just experiencing God. Just simply delighting in him. At one point we looked up and there were like little balls of light, it was almost as if we were looking at the stars or in space itself. We could even scoop it up in our hands and I could see this light. It didn't feel like anything but I was seeing something. I am just simply amazed. The more I learn about God the more I realize that I hardly know anything. I feel so humbled. We serve a powerful, awesome and beautiful God. I probably say the phrase "I don't even know" more in the last couple of weeks than I probably ever have. I am ready for this next week which is about Prayer and Intercession.
Psalms 42:1-2 As the deer pants for the streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the Living God. When can I go and meet with God?
42:7-8 Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me. By day the Lord directs his love, at night his song is with me-a prayer to the God of my life.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Childlike
We are two weeks into this DTS and God has done things beyond expectations!!! The first week was about hearing Gods voice and the second, Fear of the Lord. We have had some powerful and thought provoking speakers! Monday of Last week we watched a movie called "Finger of God." Its a documentary about all the crazy things that God does; the supernatural things that might scare us or things that we just think are plain odd. We were going to announce the outreach locations to all the students but God had other plans, which I am so completely grateful and in awe of! As Andrew was about to bring up the announcement a student sitting in complete bewilderment had GOLD DUST all over his arms! Everyone immediately rushed over to see what was happening! We were all a little bit in shock! Is this really happening?!?! What on earth are we supposed to do with this??! This is AMAZING! We then decided to just pray for anyone that needed prayer. So a few people went to the front and people began to pray! I stood back and watched everyone and most people were so engaged and proactive! And this was only the FIRST DAY OF THE SECOND WEEK! This doesn't normally happen! God what are you up to ?!?!! I was FILLED with joy and excitement, I couldn't stop jumping! As people began to pray for healing, GOD came and HEALED PEOPLE! Right in our midst!! God healed scoliosis, knee pain, and all sorts! He grew a girls leg out and now can run and kneel as normal! WHOA!!! We were all so filled with faith that night! God has been setting the stage! Hes called our dts the AWAKEN DTS and he has only begun! Hes doing all this now and I believe will begin to do even more in the nations as we go out! HE is making himself known, he warned us but we truly have no idea what he wants that to look like! The one thing he keeps repeating to me is having childlike faith. A young child is so dependent. They always believe and trust that they can do anything! They aren't critical, they just walk and follow what their parents say or do. He wants us to just trust and follow. He wants our minds to return to that child like faith, we CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST! ALL THINGS... not just what we think but ALL THINGS! Lets challenge ourselves to think that way.
Even though I have done a DTS already God has been working on my own heart! Its not the easiest process but God is so worth it all! He has been putting certain burdens on my heart that literally burn inside of me. I asked for his heart and hes giving it to me. Its not what I thought it would look like...go figure that one! His heart aches for his people! I wish I could explain to you all that God has been showing me and doing here on this campus! I fall more and more in love with him everyday. And I pray that these blogs encourage you and challenge you to RUN in complete abandonment to Jesus.
Prayer
-I have some sort of infection on my legs that has been there for about 2 1/2 weeks. I'm praying for healing but in the mean time I need money so I can see a doctor.
-Outreach fees:the exact amount right now is unknown, pray that every need will be met
-Pray for unity amongst the staff as well each individual outreach team. With out being in one heart and mind we loose the boldness to move out in power
-Fall head over heels in love with Jesus without that all of what we do is done for nothing
I apologize to any of you that have been waiting for my Pay pal missions account to be available to you. I have had some difficulties putting that together. I'm trying my hardest to get that set up this week.
I pray for you that God would encounter in a way that you have never known before! Every doubt or fear would be wiped away and replaced with HIS POWERFUL love! I invite you to come walk this journey with me because it is that best adventure that has ever occurred on this earth.
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